I've ended much of my cursing stuff since the last few weeks. I've changed. Turn in myself to the good side and for the good time.
However, it's pretty much stupid to realize that I will somehow won't be able to be myself in achieving what is good in the hereafter. I'm not that kind of person who murmured all those holy word at every time. Never. And to fake a holy expression with the inclusion of a holy word to this belong situation is sounds and looks fake,
and fucked up.