This is crap

Have you ever feel angry but you totally have no idea what the fuck makes you angry? Have you ever feel anger and you want to put all the shit behind by escape to Lombok? Ever think about it? If not, it's good then. Because I want to be the special-freak-weirdo-looser one who have that kind of thoughts. It just, I lie bout the Lombok thing. There are much more beautiful place, vintage places that I can chose to run and obviously it's not Lombok.
Many things made me lost my mood today. May be caused by pms, may be caused by tired, may be caused by satiety, may be caused by irritated. But the main caused is I am fed up. Fed up with the same daily routine. Fed up with the same person who smoke in the elevator [You sucks man!]. Fed up with myself who do nothing to get rid the-fed-up-feeling.

If possible, I wanna learn how to bake a cake. Cupcakes better. I wanna decorate that cute little cupcake by do a writing style FUCK YOU at the center of the cupcake. Or else, decorate it by a picture of skull bone, or Marilyn Manson. Let people get ticklish. Let people hate my lil cupcake. Let people isolate me.

If possible, I wanna learn how to sew a shirt, sweater is better. It will keep me warm. I wanna decorate it with the words DON'T COME NEARER. Let people read, understood and hopely will go away. I will be alone at last. But I know people nowadays do [pretend] not to understand the language, the sign. They are always broke the rules. Pretend they actually care. Bullshit.

But reality check please Shax. You don't know how to make cupcakes, and you don't even know how to sew. Sigh.

What I know is I wanna lay myself on my bed, listen to this. And hoping there is a miracle that can get rid this fucking stomachache from me. Let me be in my very own world. Let my mind go up up and away~