9.4.10

Douchebag is the last name of a lover.


I lay myself on the coffin-shape two seater sofa, cracked, counting an extra-ordinary sheep jumps over a pale white pole when I suddenly saw the previous me.

I miss those days. The day where I can't just simply put myself into that black sticky mud with no one to sing me a 'hey, don't do that' song. The day where stars and moon were just centimeters away from my head but with zero chances of plucking it. The day when earth will never start spinning unless I ask him to.

Secretly.

I lighted one of the cigar only to quench it back. Shame I didn't smoke. I just don't brave enough to start it.

I just don't have that guts. That's what my problem is.

How many times have I bumped into this uncivilized dude who throw out shit from his red shinny Ferrari. Worst when it hit my second-hand local-made car. But being a dude with no baseball bat nor a hockey stick in his car to come out with, I choose to continue driving.

And pull the wiper trigger to clean up all the mess that guy caused.

Back at that time when I saw a pregnant woman broadened her eyes looking for a seat in a packed train. I was thinking of giving her my seat but my coward side hold firm enough to deny me from standing up and offering her my seat.

And I let other douchebags takes all the credits. All the applause that previously and suppose-ly belong to me.

Fuck.


17 comments:

iyllienaz said...

why people that drive expensive car have enough money to buy anything but didnt have enough brain to think??

balqissy said...

r u try to describe me? T.T

Wanita Mutalib said...

so u r that person..






















hee..

Judiene said...

you miss the old you?
what the difference between you now and you then??
are u dumber now??
heheheee~~

¶A.K.I¶ said...

here come visiting u... long tyme no hear! haha



























dun make a trigger as ur anger!~

YobSumo said...

it ends with me questioning you, why?

-C.Gad!s- said...

everybody feel dat way sometimes..
me too...

but ,
don't regret it,
u learn something from that right?
n by that u'll be a better person..

this feeling normal...
because we all human anyway..
u'll get urself back..

just chill your life...
enjoy every moment of it..

:)

chokio_nia said...

i miss the old u to..hoho

fuwa said...

courage is subjective.not all people have the courage.

f.a.r.a.h said...

babe. those pregnant lady story? *sigh* civilization babe. come on.

larasephia said...

you're too random, too mild. If you're a little more annoying+offensive,
you are indeed a douche bag. dream on buddy.

cikmemy said...

past is past..just go with the flow..life is amazing ...go search for it...no need to look back...

Lady Dyla said...

words speak louder than actions.. u should act fast and u'll get all the credits...

ps:missing ur "motivation" words after such a long tyme..

jo said...

now i know where u got that 'supernotcool' from..

░♥si lampu neon♥░ said...

buat2 tidor dalam lrt ooowh. ;) nyeet .. but letting preggy woman stands, is a very mean way hahah

Fza.ithu.Zazha said...

re-post ur same, previous entry?
huuu~

i'msosupernotcool said...

fza: was it? i can't recall.. mybe.. lol..